Everyone
seeks peace and harmony, because these are what we lack in our lives. From time
to time we all experience agitation, irritation, disharmony, suffering; and
when we suffer from agitation, we do not keep this misery limited to ourselves.
We keep distributing it to others as well. The agitation permeates the
atmosphere around the miserable person. Everyone else who comes into contact
with him becomes irritated, agitated. Certainly this is not the proper way to
live.
One ought
to live at peace within oneself, and at peace with others. After all, a human
being is a social being. One has to live in society to live and deal with
others. How to live peacefully? How to remain harmonious within ourselves, and
to maintain peace and harmony around us, so that others also can live
peacefully and harmoniously?
When one
is agitated, then, to come out of it, one has to know the basic reason for the
agitation, the cause of the suffering. If one investigates the problem, it soon
becomes clear that whenever one starts generating any negativity or defilement
in the mind, one is bound to become agitated. A negativity in the mind a mental
defilement or impurity cannot coexist with peace and harmony.
How does
one start generating negativity? Again investigating, it becomes clear. I
become very unhappy when I find someone behaving in a way which I don’t like,
when I find something happening which I don’t like. Unwanted things happen, and
I create tension within myself. Wanted things do not happen, some obstacles
come in the way, and again I create tension within myself; I start tying knots
within myself. Throughout one’s life, unwanted things keep happening, wanted
things may or may not happen, and this process of reaction, of tying knots
Gordian knots makes the entire mental and physical structure so tense, so full
of negativity. Life becomes miserable.
Now one
way to solve the problem is to arrange things such that nothing unwanted
happens in my life, and that everything keeps on happening exactly as I desire.
I must develop such a power or somebody else must have the power and must come
to my aid whenever I request it that everything I want keeps happening. But
this is not possible.
There is
no one in the world whose desires are always fulfilled, in whose life everything
happens according to his wishes, without anything unwished-for happening.
Things keep occurring that are contrary to our desires and wishes. So, in spite
of these things which I don’t like, how not to react blindly? How not to create
tension? How to remain peaceful and harmonious?
In India
as well as in other countries, wise saintly persons of the past studied this
problem the problem of human suffering and they found a solution. If something
unwanted happens and one starts to react by generating anger, fear, or any
negativity, then as soon as possible one should divert one’s attention to
something else. For example, get up, take a glass of water, start drinking your
anger will not multiply; you’ll be coming out of your anger. Or start counting:
one, two, three, four. Or start repeating a word, a phrase, or perhaps some
mantra. It becomes easy if you use the name of a deity or a saintly person in
whom you have devotion. The mind is diverted, and to some extent
you’ll be
out of the negativity, out of anger.
This
solution was helpful; it worked. It still works. Practising this, the mind
feels free from agitation. In actuality, however, this solution works only at
the conscious level. By diverting one’s attention one in fact pushes the
negativity deep into the unconscious, and at this level one continues to
generate and multiply the same defilement. At the surface level there is a
layer of peace and harmony, but in the depths of the mind is a sleeping volcano
of suppressed negativity, which keeps erupting in violent explosions from time
to time.
Other
explorers of inner truth went still further in their search. By experiencing
the reality of mind and matter within themselves, they recognised that
diverting the attention is only running away from the problem. Escape is no
solution; one must face the problem.
Whenever a
negativity arises in the mind, just observe it, face it. As soon as one starts
observing any mental defilement, then it begins to lose all its strength.
Slowly it withers away and is uprooted.
A good
solution, avoiding both extremes of suppression and of free license. Keeping
the negativity in the unconscious will not eradicate it, and allowing it to
manifest in physical or vocal action will only create more problems. If one
just observes, then the defilement passes away: one has eradicated that
negativity, is free from that defilement.
This
sounds wonderful, but is it really practical? When anger arises, it overpowers
us so quickly that we don’t even notice. Then, overpowered by anger, we commit
certain actions which are harmful to us and to others. Later, when the anger
has passed, we start crying and repenting, begging pardon from this or that
person or god: "Oh, I made a mistake. Please excuse me!" Again the
next time, in a similar situation, we react in the same way. All this repenting
does not help at all.
The
difficulty is that I am not aware when a defilement starts. It begins deep at
the unconscious level of the mind, and by the time it reaches the conscious
level, it has gained so much strength that it overwhelms me. I cannot observe
it.
Then I
must keep a private secretary with me, so that whenever anger starts, he says,
"Look master! Anger is starting!" Since I don’t know when this anger
will start, I must have three private secretaries for three shifts, around the
clock; or rather, four of them to give staggering holidays!
Suppose I
can afford that, and the anger starts to arise. At once my secretary tells me,
"Oh, master, look! Anger has started." Then the first thing I do is
slap and abuse him: "You fool! Do you think you are paid to teach
me?" I am so overpowered by anger that no good advice will help.
Suppose
that wisdom prevails and I do not slap him. Instead I say, "Thank you very
much. Now I must sit down and observe the anger." Is it possible? As soon
as I close my eyes and try to observe the anger, immediately the object of
anger comes into my mind, the person or incident because of which I became
angry. Then I am not observing the anger. Rather, I am observing the external
stimulus of the emotion. This will only multiply the anger. This is no
solution. It is very difficult to observe any abstract negativity, abstract
emotion, divorced from the external object which aroused it.
However,
one who reached the ultimate truth in full enlightenment found a real solution.
He discovered that whenever any defilement arises in the mind, simultaneously,
two things start happening at the physical level. One is that the breath loses
its normal rhythm. I start breathing hard whenever a negativity comes into the
mind. This is one reality which everyone can experience, though it be very
gross and apparent. At the same time, at a subtler level, some kind of
biochemical reaction starts within the body some sensation. Every defilement
will generate one sensation or the other inside, in one or another part of the
body.
This is a
practical solution. An ordinary person cannot observe abstract defilements of
the mind abstract fear, anger or passion. But with proper training and
practice, it is very easy to observe the respiration and the sensations, both
of which are directly related to the mental defilements.
The
respiration and the sensations will help me in two ways. First, they will be my
private secretaries. As soon as a defilement starts in the mind, my breath will
lose its normality. It will start shouting: "Look, something has gone
wrong!" I cannot slap the breath; I have to accept the warning. Similarly,
the sensations tell me: "Something has gone wrong." I must accept
this. Then, having been warned, I start observing the respiration, the sensations,
and I find very quickly that the defilement passes away.
This
mental-physical phenomenon is like a coin with two sides. On the one side is
whatever thoughts or emotions arise in the mind. On the other side are the
respiration and sensation in the body. Any thought or emotion (whether
conscious or unconscious), any mental defilement manifests in the breath and
sensation of that moment. Thus by observing the respiration or sensation, I am
indirectly observing the mental defilement. Instead of running away from the
problem, I am facing the reality as it is. Then I will find that the defilement
loses its strength; it can no longer overpower me as it did in the past. If I
persist, the defilement eventually disappears altogether and I remain peaceful and
happy.
In this
way, the technique of self-observation shows us reality in its two aspects,
outside and inside. Previously, one always looked with open eyes, missing the
inner truth. I always looked outside for the cause of my unhappiness. I always
blamed and tried to change the reality outside. Being ignorant of the inner
reality, I never understood that the cause of suffering lies within, in my own
blind reactions.
It is
difficult to observe an abstract negativity when it arises. But now, by training,
I can see the other side of the coin: I can be aware of the breathing and also
of what is happening inside me. Whatever it is, the breath or any sensation, I
learn to just observe it, without losing the balance of the mind. I stop
multiplying my miseries. Instead, I allow the defilement to manifest and pass
away.
The more
one practises this technique, the more one will find how quickly he or she can
come out of the negativity. Gradually the mind becomes freed of defilements; it
becomes pure. A pure mind is always full of love, detached love for all others;
full of compassion for the failings and sufferings of others; full of joy at
their success and happiness; full of equanimity in the face of any situation.
When one
reaches this stage, then the entire pattern of one’s life starts changing. It
is no longer possible for one to do anything vocally or physically which will
disturb the peace and happiness of others. Instead, the balanced mind not only
becomes peaceful in itself, it helps others to become peaceful also. The
atmosphere surrounding such a person will become permeated with peace and
harmony, and this will start affecting others too.
This is
what the Buddha taught, an art of living. He never established or taught any
religion, any "ism." He never instructed followers to practise any
rites or rituals, any blind or empty formalities. Instead, he taught to just
observe nature as it is, by observing the reality inside. Out of ignorance, one
keeps reacting in a way which is harmful to oneself and to others. Then when
wisdom arises the wisdom of observing the reality as it is one comes out of
this blind reaction. When one ceases to react blindly, then one is capable of
real action, action proceeding from a balanced, equanimous mind, a mind which
sees and understands the truth. Such action can only be positive, creative,
helpful to oneself and to others.
What is
necessary, then, is to "know thyself" advice which every wise person
has given. One must know oneself not just at the intellectual level, at the
level of ideas and theories. Nor does this mean to know oneself at the
devotional or emotional level, simply accepting blindly what one has heard or
read. Such knowledge is not enough.
Rather,
one must know reality at the actual level. One must experience directly the
reality of this mental-physical phenomenon. This alone is what will help us to
come out of defilements, out of sufferings.
This
direct experience of reality within one’s own self, this technique of
self-observation, is what is called Vipassana meditation. In the language of
India in the time of the Buddha, passanā meant to look, to see with open eyes,
in the ordinary way. But Vipassana is to observe things as they really are, not
just as they seem to be. Apparent truth has to be penetrated, until one reaches
the ultimate truth of the entire mental and physical structure. When one
experiences this truth, then one learns to stop reacting blindly, to stop
creating defilements. Naturally the old defilements are gradually eradicated.
One comes out of all miseries, and experiences happiness.
There are
three steps to the training which is given in a Vipassana course. First, one
must abstain from any action, physical or vocal, which disturbs the peace and
harmony of others. One cannot work to liberate oneself from defilements in the
mind while at the same time continuing to perform deeds of body and speech
which only multiply those defilements. Therefore a code of morality is the
essential first step of the practice. One undertakes not to kill, not to steal,
not to commit sexual misconduct, not to speak lies, and not to use intoxicants.
By abstaining from such actions, one allows the mind to quiet down.
The next
step is to develop some mastery over this wild mind, by training it to remain
fixed on a single object, the breath. One tries to keep one’s attention on the
respiration for as long as possible. This is not a breathing exercise; one does
not regulate the breath. Instead one observes the natural respiration as it is,
as it comes in, as it goes out. In this way one further calms the mind, so that
it is no longer overpowered by violent negativities. At the same time, one is
concentrating the mind, making it sharp and penetrating, capable of the work of
insight.
These
first two steps of living a moral life and controlling the mind are very
necessary and beneficial in themselves. But they will lead to self-repression
unless one takes the third step: purifying the mind of defilements, by
developing insight into one’s own nature. This, really, is Vipassana:
experiencing one’s own reality, through the systematic and dispassionate
observation of the ever-changing mind-matter phenomenon manifesting itself as
sensations within oneself. This is the culmination of the teaching of the
Buddha: self-purification through self-observation.
This can
be practised by one and all. The disease is not sectarian, therefore the remedy
cannot be sectarian: it must be universal. Everyone faces the problem of
suffering. When one suffers from anger, it is not Buddhist anger, Hindu anger,
Christian anger. Anger is anger. Due to anger, when one becomes agitated, it is
not a Christian agitation, or Hindu, or Buddhist agitation. The malady is
universal. The remedy must also be universal.
Vipassana
is such a remedy. No one will object to a code of living which respects the
peace and harmony of others. No one will object to developing control of the
mind. Noone will object to developing insight into one’s own reality, by which
it is possible to free the mind of negativities. It is a universal path. It is
not a cult. It is not a dogma. It is not blind faith.
Observing
the reality as it is, by observing truth inside this is knowing oneself at the
actual, experiential level. And as one practises, one starts coming out of the
misery of defilements. From the gross, external apparent truth, one penetrates
to the ultimate truth of mind and matter. Then one transcends that and
experiences a truth which is beyond mind and matter, beyond time and space,
beyond the conditioned field of relativity: the truth of total liberation from
all defilements, all impurities, all suffering. Whatever name one gives this
ultimate truth is irrelevant. It is the final goal of everyone.
May all of
you experience this ultimate truth. May all people everywhere come out of their
defilements, their misery. May they enjoy real happiness, real peace, real
harmony.
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